I know I wake up everyday wanting what a normal young lady wants. After I had been hurt too many times to count I can’t accept bs from guys. I will not see you this summer might not be easy but it will be wasting my time when I could be doing what I enjoy. I never knew I never thought one day I would wake and spend an entire day feeling like an object or not deserve people to care or understand my pain or how much I wanted to not be alive. My body might look great but I haven’t er n treating it the best way. I don’t exercise or eat healthy anymore it feel right because I can’t let go so I find it difficult to forgive myself because I made an immature mistake. I shouldn’t ever believe you because you lied to my face 14 years of a friendship threw away I guess because of bs. Damn it’s going take more than a dry convocation for me to smile or pertend I am fucking impressed or believe you in any way. Keep this in mind next time we meet you should have an apology ready for me.